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As shapeless as It is,

We believe in number

That has us count our life time,

We categorize it into days, month and years

Yet we stand stationary as immovable materials

Counting blessings bestowed over others

Brings miracles on our shoulders,

Through the sparks of time

Our generations receive the misery

Brought to us by time.

It is not to blame,

Rather to thank, opportunities are given,

In summer we celebrate,

In fall, winter and spring

Life gives us hope.

24 is our number

That defines our life

With paths we have chosen,

We should live accordingly.

As it counts forward,

Future pays for our struggles

The past is history,

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Time is our fate.

 

By Felix Massinda
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Face your Storms…


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I have been too afraid to start something new, afraid to let people in and understand who I really am because I am not complete like any of you. Most times, as human, we tend to show people what they want to see and not the really us because we might make them like us.

When life knocks us down, we still pretend to be fine and move on with life, we smile in our worst times, we laugh when we are broken inside, we cry only when we are alone, because we have been taught that it is weakness to cry in public, afraid to be alone and contemplate our life because we are scared to face the reality. It is okay to be scared, every person has something they are scared of.

We are created and molded according to our needs, our environment, people around shape us are all created to mend life according to our needs and not to destroy it. Your life is an answer to someone else’s problem, live well. Learn to understand not judge, learn to listen not to respond, learn to lead not mislead.

Don’t wait too long to start living, being scared is what makes us human.

Mother;A Cradle to Hold Me


It is true

 

I was created in you.

 

It is also true

 

That you were created for me.

 

I owned your voice.

 

It was shaped and tuned to soothe me.

 

Your arms were molded

 

Into a cradle to hold me, to rock me.

 

The scent of your body was the air

 

Perfumed for me to breathe.

 

Mother,

 

During those early, dearest days

 

I did not dream that you had

 

A large life which included me,

 

For I had a life

 

Which was only you.

 

Time passed steadily and drew us apart.

 

I was unwilling.

 

I feared if I let you go

 

You would leave me eternally.

 

You smiled at my fears, saying

 

I could not stay in your lap forever

 

That one day you would have to stand

 

And where would I be?

 

You smiled again.

 

I did not.

 

Without warning you left me,

 

But you returned immediately.

 

You left again and returned,

 

I admit, quickly,

 

But relief did not rest with me easily

 

You left again, but again returned.

 

You left again, but again returned.

 

Each time you reentered my world

 

You brought assurance.

 

Slowly I gained confidence.

 

You thought you knew me,

 

But I did know you,

 

You thought you were watching me,

 

But I did hold you securely in my sight,

 

Recording every moment,

 

Memorizing your smiles, tracing your frowns.

 

In your absence

 

I rehearsed you,

 

The way you had of singing

 

On a breeze,

 

While a sob lay

 

At the root of your song.

 

The way you posed your head

 

So that the light could caress your face

 

When you put your fingers on my hand

 

And your hand on my arm,

 

I was struck with a sense of health,

 

Of strength and very good fortune.

 

You were always

 

The heart of happiness to me,

 

Bringing nougats of glee,

 

Sweets of open laughter.

 

During the years when you knew nothing

 

And I knew everything, I loved you still.

 

Condescendingly of course,

 

From my high perch

 

Of teenage wisdom.

 

I grew older and

 

Was stunned to find

 

How much knowledge you had gleaned,

 

And so quickly.

 

Mother I have learned enough now

 

To know I have learned nearly nothing;.

 

On this day

 

When mothers are being honored,

 

Let me thank you

 

That my selfishness, ignorance, and mockery

 

Did not bring you to

 

Discard me like a broken doll

 

Which had lost its favor.

 

I thank you that

 

You still find something in me

 

To cherish, to admire, and to love.

 

I thank you, Mother.

 

I love you.

By Maya Angelou

Hug Me


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Hug me and I will cuddle you,

In my darkest fear, I need you,

In my happiest moment, I love you

My shoulders are yours,

Not just when you cry,

I will always be here,

Not just when you’re lonely,

My heart is always yours,

Even when I hurt you the most,

In my lap you can sleep,

All night I will sing,

For my happiness is yours,

As for my life I swore,

Forever is his presence,

Together we shall live.

 

 

Written by Felix Massinda

Being Consistent…


Right after my graduation, I started looking for a job; I must say, it was not an easy task because in school, we were not taught on how we are going to embark the Job Market, I was scared just like anybody else. So I started creating my CV which I did not know what to put in or what not to include – it was a struggle.

 

It was a frustrating era of job hunting without enough knowledge on the subject; you should also know that it was even harder because I had pursued Bachelor of Art with Education ( specialized in Linguistic and Literature) majority know that I was supposed to be an English teacher to a certain Secondary school.

 

With people’s comments and discouragement about what I pursued and what I wanted to find in the Job Market which was being a Human Resources Specialist were two sides of the coin because I was not looking for a job in a school rather in a company where I could be able to learn and sharpen my mind with the trends.

 

Despite all sorts of words and push, I never gave up, I continued to look for a job until one day, and I got a temp Job in a printing company where I had to work for almost 15 to 20 hrs. a day to design, print and distribute Standard seven forms to Schools in Tanzania. I took the job and spent 2 months of working not less than 100 hrs. a week. After that, doors opened, I got another Internship where I had a chance to work with a very reputable NGO as a communication officer. After six month of Internship, I got another job where I worked as a Language Trainer. With all the changes and frustration, I never gave up because I was looking for a Human Resources position and after Six months of teaching staff English language, I was promoted to a Human Resources position and that is where my dream started to come true.

 

I had spent more than a year looking for the job I have always wanted, by doing so consistently without stopping, being discouraged or driven away. I started to learn every day and get all the skills that the job needed me to have and slowly, I started to master and I have enjoyed ever since.

 

Well, in life, we strive every day for a better life, fancy house, luxurious car, fine clothes, welcoming house and many of the sorts. By seeing and envisioning yourself in such kind of a life, it becomes easy because it’s all just a dream without focus and action, it will always remain a dream.

 

We all have gone to school and struggled with our grades, being told you are not good enough, being directed towards life you have not intended to have. We spend hours and hours to prepare for exams that do not last for more than three hours, two days later, you have forgotten everything you have read, that’s our education system because through the results, people will determine your future which is not relevant.

 

For you to be successful, we need consistency towards whatever dream and goals you are having in your life. Learn new things every day, practice what you learn, be kind and focused. Create your goals and work harder towards them without despair.

 

Stand on your Decision and do not let yourself be misled by either yourself, friends, other people. Stand in line and become the master of your own life. Apply Discipline and Consistency, the rest will fall in line. 

 

 

Written by FMassinda.

My Life in Poetry (Part Four)


Years, months, weeks, days passed

My skin started to shrink

My eyes strength diminished

Life remained a dying diamond

Without its’ beauty

It is just a stone.

 

 

I cried night and day

Without a purpose, my tears could shed,

I ended up in the same hole every day

Crying for the same reasons

Lying in the same bed

Seeing same people

Reading the same paragraph

Yet, I expected to become better

 

I was shocked that I became reluctant

To my own ability to strive the storm

In my needy days

My mind wondered nowhere than in its own boundary

Days of living were countless

I figured that if I am to live differently

I have to be different

 

 

Difference between being different and becoming one

Still was a puzzle I had to solve,

My past engulfed my future,

With difference, I wanted to make

I aspired nothing more than misery

Torture and laziness

Were my best friends at a time.

 

Despite leaving a life of no improvement,

I still had food and clothes every day

Then, I thought, what is it that I am missing

I found out, there is nothing I lose more than my desire of a good life

Good life which I cannot fight for

Better life that I cannot dedicate myself to it

Lazy I became, excuses I gave out

Despite my contemplating days

I am still sitting on my own fence.

 

to be continued…

Written by Felix Massinda

Usikate tamaa, Safari bado ni ndefu.


Nimekutana na rafiki zangu wa kidato cha nne, tumeongea mengi ya utotoni na kukumbuka malengo tuliyokuwa tukijiwekea aidha kwa mzaha ama kwa kudhamiria, ila hiyo haina sana mashiko kwa sasa maana, wengi wetu tumefanikia kupata maisha ya wastani na bado tunaendelea kutafuta ndoto zetu.

Kwa kipindi cha masomo shuleni, hatukuweza kujua wapi tutafika, na ni nini tutafanya. Kwa sababu ilikuwa shule ya wamisionari, kwa hiyo ilikuwa rahisi sana kujua labda unaweza kwenda kusomea upadri. Ilikuwa ni kitu chenye mwelekeo usio sahihi kwa wakati ule maana wito pekee ndio ungeweza kuhakiki dhumuni lako la kuwa Padri.

Kwa maana hiyo wengi wetu tulimaliza na kufaulu vizuri na kuendelea na masomo na wengine walishindwa kutokana na hali ngumu ya uchumi katika familia na wengine mpaka leo sijui wapo wapi, ila naamini bado wanaendelea na mapambano ya maisha.

Mimi mwenyewe, nilikuwa na malengo mbali mbali katika maisha, na kuhakikisha ninapata maisha bora (japo ilikuwa ngumu sana kujua maisha bora ni yapi kwa wakati ule).

Katika safari yote niliyopitia na labda wengi wenu mnaosoma maandishi haya leo hii mtakuwa mmepitia pia. Yapo mambo ambayo katika maisha, yanaweza kukuvunja moyo na kukata tamaa ya maisha. tumesikia watu mbalimbali wanachukua uhai wao wenyewe, sio kwa sababu wanapenda ila kwa sababu ya kitu fulani ambacho kimewaharibia mwenendo wa maisha. Itabidi tukubali kwamba tumejaliwa utofauti katika kutafuta mustakabali wa mambo mbali mbali, katika kuchambua na kuwa na uwezo wa kuendelea na maisha japo kupitia kipindi kigumu.

Maisha sio lele mama, inabidi tufunge mkanda, tuwe na uvumilivu na kujua mwelekeo wa maisha utakaokufaa. Usisubiri kuambiwa kwamba njia hii unayotumia sio sahihi ama hii ni sahihi.

Wewe pekee ndio mwamuzi wa mwisho wa maamuzi utakayofanya juu ya maisha yako. Jua ni kitu gani unataka na ukifanyie kazi kwa bidii maana bila kufanya hivyo hatuwezi kamwe kupata majibu ya maisha yetu na ya baadae.

Hivyo kukata tamaa si jambo la kufikiria kabisa, maisha yapo yanatusubiri kwa hali  na mali.

Jiwekee malengo, kuwa na uvumilivu, acha kufanya mambo yasiyo na umuhimu, fanya uchambuzi wa mambo kabla ya kutenda, tenda kwa uaminifu; ukifanikiwa kukamilisha mambo haya machache, maisha hayatokuwa magumu sana naamini.

 

Mwandishi: Felix Massinda

Keep your head high


In every day struggle to our well planned and organized life goals, we face discouragement from people we know, love, live with every single day. Mostly from those whom we have put our trust to them.

Do not be despaired by these kinds of people who only discourage people from going after their dreams.

Today is the day, start working on your plans, dreams. Execute everything you have planned well, do not wait until tomorrow…

Start small, become the master of your life.

 

Its Never too Late…


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Have you ever felt that you are too late to change or to learn something new? Let me tell you today, “ITS NEVER TOO LATE”

I was talking to an old guy once, to break silence in the office while carrying on with our duties, the conversation made us alive and keep on working. The topic we picked is can an old person be enrolled in learning sessions and learn as any person, the reason he though it might  be is, Old people are facing hardship to learn as they are getting old and their mind as well are too old to learn something new.

The reason might seem a bit convincing when you imagine an old guy of almost 60 to 80`s in class learning. What do you think? What would have been your answer if your were in my shoes?

I told him, learning is a choice despite the age. I understand as we got old, our learning capability decreases due to aging but that should not be an excuse not to learn and stay idle. He finally agreed with me somehow.

Would like to hear your thoughts on the matter.

Step out to what you want in Life…


How is life treating you? How are you treating life? Are you living the life you want?

Do you realize that each of us has the power to create the life we want if… we are willing to pay the price? What do I mean, pay the price?

There is a price to pay for everything you want in life. It could be time, money, classes, commitment, practice, sacrifice… the list goes on and on. Only you know what is the price for what you want.

I personally know that the price for success is high and that sometimes it takes a long, long time to happen. And I also know that the rewards are tremendous.

So I ask you, “What would it take for you to be as successful as you want to be?”

A better job? A deeper relationship? More money?

Are you willing to pay the price, no matter what?

If you are, then you are on your way to a successful outcome. Will it always turn out exactly as you planned? No, not always. Sometimes it will turn out even better or worse but that should not be a reason to give up on your dreams. if it’s something you really want. Take the risk and be committed.

I believe you can do it – then take a step in that direction. You know if it were easy, everyone would be doing it. But it’s not. You are the one. You are the one that’s going to do it.

Start today. Start now!

Thank You Mama.


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As I am aging, your life becomes more vivid

As your grey hair grow everyday

I get more reasons to Say Thank you mama.

 

Through childhood, I took life for advantage

Never questioned what you had to go through

To take care of the three of us,

 

Our naughty and blocked ears hurt you

Our arrogance broke your heart

Yet, you kept us safe and your love blossomed

 

Not until I started depending on my own

I started realizing what you had gone through to make us who we are.

Three of us today are the product of your love

Testimony of your strength

Love of your own Love.

 

You made us LOVE of your own,

Today, You’re the Love of my Life

You had been yes, but I never realized it.

 

Today, my family stands out

Your grandson and granddaughter live to see us

In your image, we are proud

 

 

I say thank you, you installed walls of wisdom

Knowledge of God and a tender heart in my life

That has rescued our life in many instances

Without even realizing it.

 

Today I say thank you mama.

For all the Love, strength and Family you gave us.

 

May your life continue to be our Strength.

May your Life bless us through every moment.

 

Thank you mama.

 

"Psalm 23"

 

 

 

With Love.Red heart

Felix Massinda.

New Year 2017


 

Warm up for the Year ahead like an athlete would warm up for a competition. Start gently with small movements, stretching, and preparing mentally, and then increase the intensity as you go.

You will last longer and get farther that way than if you take off running at full speed.

 

Author Unknown.

Worshiping others


Well, through life, as individuals we are all entitled to our own thoughts and decisions. One of the reason we become inferior is because we give other people freedom to dominate our lives just because we lack something they have.

I discourage such doing, we end up worshiping other people more than our God. Its time to deeply realize how much you worthy and how much your life matters.

Never back down for some cheap talks from people that you can not do anything about your life. You have the energy and brain to work it out. Make that DECISION and LIVE your life.  

The ONE


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Alone in the dark i sit

With imagination of my future i see

Stuck in my own beliefs

Scared to face the light

Yet eager to be the ONE

 

Across the wall i hide

Closing my ears to hear the sounds

Sounds of encouragement

That could only waste my time

With fear to stand up

I could feel my feet tremble

 

Another day, another week and keep counting

Same corner i sleep, same food and same house

Checking in out and out the color of the world

With seasons that pass by

Still old i grow with same beliefs i hold.

 

Until i realized, i am not growing any older

Rather young in my mind and older in my body

For a good future, equal should the mind and the body be

 

Today i get out with new version and definition of light

Today i change the cloths and the look from my past

Today i become a new child to the world

With new ways and new beliefs

Leaving behind myself old me

Now striving to make a new LIFE

To become the only ONE i intend to be

 

Written by Felix Massinda